This last week, I've felt schizophrenic.
I'm literally ALL over the place (physically & otherwise). I really don't enjoy the "hair on fire" days anymore. I used to be an expert at shoe-horning activities together like a 1,000 piece jigsaw puzzle. I could squeeze activities & tasks together with amazing efficiency. However, cramming more in has become something I loathe. There's been so much on my mind & plate that I actually fell asleep at 8:30 last night, on the verge of a migraine (thankfully avoided).
Here are just a few things that I've done within the last week, just to offer a taste of the extremes . . .
- met a friend at the Emergency Room to care for her son while daughter waited to be seen
- completed online testing & went to a job interview in Glendale
- helped recruit friends for a fundraiser for a friend's film
- took treats to Mahalia's class
- met with a lawyer
- applied for & followed up on multiple jobs around town
- completed info for our website's upcoming face lift
- did laundry & dishes
- choreographed & ran through the 3.5 minute salsa routine with students for the upcoming benefit
- had a play date at the park with Mahalia's class mates in Sierra Madre
- saw my friend's new apartment in Old Town
- completed training in downtown to be a part of the prayer team at church
- hosted multiple friends for home cooked meals at our house
- booked Dan's travel to Festival of Faith & Music in Grand Rapids
- booked a salsa teaching gig at a new club here in Pasadena
- finished the paperwork for our merchant account
- managed to squeeze in a date with Dan :-)
I feel like I'm wearing so many hats every day, that sometimes I forget what the heck I'm doing. One minute I'm doing dishes & literally the next minute, I'm on the phone with a potential employer & racing to finish their application process.
I'm also in the process of grieving the loss of being at home with my kiddo full time. It's been a glorious (albeit not glamorous) 2 years. What a gift . . . one that I never imagined would have come my way. So being caught in the purgatory between motherhood, being a co-worker with Dan, applying for new jobs, and teaching gigs as they come up - all while trying to maintain friendships with those who have become so dear, has been like a circus act. I remind myself of a comedic juggler - the kind where they drop more things than they juggle.
So my prayer has been for grace and peace. Grace for each day, and peace in my heart.
This one's for you, sweetie!
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