garden of ideas

I can't really even begin to describe the agonizing debate in my head lately . . .

I've had the privilege (dare I say the luxury?) of staying home the last 21 months.  It has been a precious time to invest in our little family of three.  I've done all of the things stay-at-home-moms do.  But I've also had the privilege of doing lots of things that most moms don't ever have the chance to do:

• read lots of books
• started volunteering in a new place
• started my own business 
• done massive amounts of personal reflection
• danced 'til I couldn't dance anymore
• started a new hobby (beading)

So do I want to go back to work this year & leave my little slice of heaven?  Nope.  Not. Even. A. Little.  Do we need me to go back to work?  Yes.  Absolutely.  No. Question. About. It.  Ugh . . . but where to even begin?  And when?  And how?  I've changed so much that I'm sure I won't go back to the same kind of work as before.

More importantly, will I be able to remain the kind of woman I want to be?  Centered.  Focused.  Kind.  Creative.  Energized.  Engaged.  Invested.  I hope so!

Dan & I just had an unforseen brainstorming session where we came up with the coolest idea.  A win-win-win for our little team of three.  It's crazy enough . . . that . . . it . . .  just . . . might . . . work!!!  There was such synergy between us that he called it a "garden of ideas." 

Stay tuned . . .